All I can do is to try to guide you as I have been guided. As I'm typing this there is a young minister not five feet from me, a friend of my son's who I also consider a "son". I see in him confidence and assurance in knowing what God wants him to do. I wish I could bottle that up and send it to you. My best advice is to tell you to talk to God. What has worked for me may not necessarily work for you, and that is exactly how I've been guided by others over the years. There is no substitute for a one-on-one conversation with Him. If you're not "right" with Him, He will let you know. If you are doing exactly what He wants you to do, He will also affirm that.